致二十二 生日快乐

二十二了

收拾颓废的心态

开始人生真正的篇章

亲情

父母的愛

真的是無限的

上了大學以後

更是深刻的感受到你們給我的愛

像公主那般的疼愛

每一次我在外回到家

父母阿嬤啊公總是對我說

那種感覺是說不出的喜悅與溫暖

要吃飽沒錢跟我拿

媽媽買給你

在外過的如何 不開心隨時可以回家

我帶你去吃好吃的

要回就回來 你生日禮物要什麼

我真心希望的是你們健康平安

這是多麼偉大無私的愛 

可是 我想說 

我要買的東西 

 我會自己存錢買 

擁有真正的快樂

我對你們的承諾

每一次回家可以抱抱你們 

我要帶你們環遊世界

讓你們不為我擔心

友情

感恩生日每年都有朋友陪著我慶生

感謝那麼多的你們記得我生日

雖然沒得和家人姐妹慶祝

不過你們一直的陪伴

是我一生最好的禮物

其實我一直都很幸運

每一個階段 我會遇到不同的朋友

每一次都有人和我慶祝生日

愛我的家鄉朋友們 
你們給我的愛 
每一年都沒有減少過 
每一年你們的電話與生日歌
 給我大大的溫暖 
我真的很感恩也很幸福 
我會加倍以行動的方式去愛你們

這一次最大的驚喜就是在life game

Ming shiuan帶領整個life game

為我慶祝生日

這一刻讓我深刻明白

對一個人的愛

不是光靠嘴巴說

而是行動

你每次一直為我付出

從沒要求過任何回報

人不要只是一直顧著拿
或一直想着付出多少就得多少的回报

卻忘了施比受更為有福

我真的沒有那麼感動過

在這大學裡經歷的一切

我真的很慶幸一直有你鼓勵陪伴

謝謝你

還有一年讓請我好好疼愛你。

我的沙巴家人為我慶生 謝謝你們給我在外地 不感到孤單 你們的關係與問候 互相遷就互相體諒 所以我們至今從沒吵架過 真的很感恩 也一起度過了每一個人的生日

我的系友們 沒有你們 我的大學生活 只是為了讀書而讀書 你們總是那麼隨意 說走就走 遲到沒去 一通電話你們就很steady幫我搞定 剩下不到一年 我真的捨不得

爱情

谢谢你老朋友

你给的那番话

你若盛开 蝴蝶自来

点醒了我

我还有很多更重要的事

等著我去學習

等着我去完成与实现
很喜欢很喜欢一个人

就让他成为我向目标前进的动力

最重要是快乐
最重要不要让自己后悔
让自己谢谢他出现在我的青春里
如果我今天错过了你才会后悔
至少我有向你提出我的勇气
至少我不会后悔不会遗憾

生活

这次生日给了自己一个很棒的礼物

就是参加了生活营

不要再懒惰混日子颓废了 前途很重要啊！

只有我们 能够决定自己的样子

繼續尋找人生目標

至少你是在路上。

可不可以不做玫瑰

真心不想做玫瑰了

我不是林真心

只有我们才能决定自己的样子

想说

我拼了命的保护完美形象

保护得快疯了

你说的一点也没错

做校花做女神

是有代价的

我不做玫瑰了
这不适合我
每当外壳坠落
我没有剩下什么
金玉其外
败絮其中

再也不喜欢这样的自己
我好像不是自己
我要走出来
从玫瑰里
才能真正做喜欢的自己

那多玫瑰

快枯萎了

已经失去了养分

那一次

我用我的刺

保护着我

却狠狠往你心里扎

说不痛

是谎话

我一直都没有在他的计划里

你的计划里却一直有着我

以为需要的是太阳花的阳光

却忘了氧气比较重要

我后悔了吧

忏悔去吧

不再做玫瑰

要做什么好呢

满天星怎么样

就像天空的星星

就算白天没人看见

还是不停的发光

嗯好

那就满天星

就这样

生日

许下愿望

你有在我的愿望里

重要的人都有在里面

话说

今年生日没有在家乡

没有#家人

没有#十年姐妹

的陪伴生日觉得就是

少了些什么

我的生日卡片勒

*嘟着嘴*

:/

好贪心

什么都要

我该知足的

我期待的

生活营

我来了

希望这是今年最棒的

给自己的

生日礼物

生日快乐。

错过

如果没有如果

早知道没有早知道

心里闷闷不乐

不喜欢这样的自己

感觉空空的

如果那叫作错过

我是不是已经失去了你

如果那叫作等待

那个等待会不会是后悔

可以爱一个人

可是不要等待一个人

这往往不值得

没有答案

好像应该顺其自然

爱自己多一点的

自己爱多一点的

两个都不会完美

必须找一个平衡点

应该自己爱自己多一些

为什么不会遇见

喜欢的人也喜欢自己

才发现

用最真实的自己

才能遇见最应该的那个人

困住自己的不是现实

不是回忆

而是自己

我到底要些什么

是不是

不管我再笨再丑再差劲再累

都不会离开我的人

都会一直一直陪伴我的人

爱是当每个人问我

何时要开始减肥

你的目标是什么

而你却问我

你今天记得喝水

你今天累不累

你是谁不重要

重要的是和谁在一起的自己

明知道对方不适合自己

却拼命为了迁就对方

而消耗自己

说了谎的自己

你几时才能把我看清

没有完美

完美并不美

完美是一加一等于二

没有人有义务对你好

只可惜我不懂得珍惜

得不到的永远最美好

不停的追逐最美丽的流星雨

遥不可及的迷恋

其实最好的早已在身边

我想念把我当公主的人

第一次的公主梦成真

因为不懂得珍惜

一直不停在失去

最怕原来当时不懂事

当我懂事时

却已经错过了

每一次都答应自己

这是最后一次

却依旧老干着同样的事

现在不可以向前

不可以退后

是怎样啦

冲动是魔鬼

每一次的决定

都后悔

最折磨的是你清楚很多事

早已回不去而你却放不下

别无选择

失去后

一切都好像变得如此清晰

像下了一场倾盆大雨

雨停了

你是否

还在那里

可你少了一个见我的理由

你走我走

我犹豫

你摔倒

我想好了站起来

继续走

而你却受伤得无法走动

因为爱

而信任我

却赐给我伤害你的权利

如果我回头

给你伤害我的权利

我们算不算扯平

你应该会说

掉了的东西

捡回来

已经是脏的

你也只好头也不回地走掉

是我把你弄丢的

想放下浮躁

放下复杂

放下三分钟热度

放空我禁不住诱惑的大脑

放开我容易为任何新鲜的事物停下来的眼睛

闭住我什么都想聊两句的嘴巴

静下心来好好做我该做的事

心累让人更累

我想我需要的是沉淀

想做的不要去想只需要去做好吗

我不够好

不改变

还怨天尤人

遇人不俗

运气不好

根本没有资格

去拥有幸福

只有继续在爱情里失败下去

总是自以为是的

站在自己角度

批评他人

可是你不知道他人的生活

与自己的生活经历

有多大的出入

有多大的与众不同

这一路

错过那么多人

犯过错经历的遗憾

都是为了和未来的他在一起

而准备的

已经等了那么久

如果最后是你

晚一点应该真的没关系

只是

我需要陪伴

需要拥抱

需要倾听

为什么不能早一点拥有

我说

人生

干嘛有那么多遇见

庆幸有一个好朋友

我什么也不用说

你却什么都懂

我幸福 你为我感到快乐

我难过 你心里会不舒服

我欣赏你 你欣赏我

因为有了对方而骄傲

谢谢你

愿意无时无刻

听我讲

等我回家

我要借你肩膀靠一下下

我的懦弱

我的脆弱

请帮我收藏

亲情友情更值得

好好去珍惜。

话说

这只是一个故事

不是自己经历

请让我圆我当小说家的梦想

:)

Ipoh trip

Here is my short get away with all my ten yeas sisters, this is our first trip ever and I miss it! Nice trip ever, the feeling was super nice. Love to being with you girls, We have been longing for this trip long time ago, finally we made it! I love the feeling we all do planning together, discuss together to make this trip successfully. Between, Ipoh is the place I wish to go for a long time already! It was like finally. Although this trip was a little bit rushing and full of tiredness but I did enjoyed till the max. 

I cannot imagine I can go travel with my sis before back to uni life. A good and memorable trip for me indeed. I do appreciate I have you girls by my side always. Full of love. I hope will have another anniversary trip every year as our friendship grow older. Can't believe we can maintain our ten years friendships until now. We live apart but our heart never apart. We never forget each others. 

From this road trip, I love the moments we share each other's story while drinking the beer and eating the snacks. The feeling is great! Between, this is my very first time be the whole journey driver, woow, it was a new experience for me as well. Ipoh is the place I will definitely visit again! We visit quite a lot of places and food marathon is successfully completed! Grow fat and become a little bit tanned after this trip haha. But tanned skin don't care! 

All sleepy faces. Take the 3-hours bus go to the TBS then we have our favourite breakfast there '老油鬼鬼'

Our first station-Plan B cafe

This is a nice place for shooting indeed. We spend a sum of time here. Finally we got some sisters' photos.

Here is the famous milk cow ice cream hehe. We ordered honey cube and dark chocolate flavour. I can say I super duper love honey cube this flavour..full of milk and mixed with some sweet. 

Afterwards, we went to the new places...ipoh is fulled of the gua..amazing! Nice scenery with awesome people.

Next stop is a super nice cafe..but the food and drinks was damn expensive, but is quite delicious so worth it!

Celebrate our er jie b'day! Finally we five can gather together and celebrate her b'day. 

 We were stucked at this places for about half an hour, luckily got you all, calm me down, fooling around haha. 

Ipoh's railway station so beautiful!

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                                                                                                 Erynn

P1

I did well spend my holidays with P1 teammates. They are indeed my best partners always, helping, tolerating each others all the time. I love to be with them, fooling around, working hard and did so much of insane and crazy things. Frankly, before I start this job, I was quite scared that I cannot handle with this job as I never have the experience in door to door sales like this. But yet making a move and making a change always make life better. Sometimes good things never happen to us because we are too lazy to make a change or our scary thoughts just ruin everything. I have experienced the sourness, sweetness, bitterness and spicy in this job.

#Sourness

Working double hard together and making effort to do the best and hit the target no matter rainy or sunny days. Always be motivated by boss although results was not that good or feeling down sometimes. Boss shared their experiences to us frequently and they called it as growth! Failure is the way to success. Don't give up easily be perseverance.

#Sweetness

Boss always bring us go eat eat and eat to help us gain weight xD The compliment from boss made our days! We gonna have a farewell party before going back to Sabah. Looking forward to it! I did explored and discovered so much of new things and wider my social circle here. Learn to be more positive minded, determine, proactive and independent. That's the reason I love this job. 

#Bitterness

Sometimes will be complained and scolded by customers that P1. Boss sometimes gave us stress to pushing us. I just can say that sometimes sales is basically depend on lucky. So just be positive thinking :)

#Spicy

Lol I got no idea what to describe in spicy -.- Maybe I had been eaten many spicy foods during work times? hahahahaha

I looked so hungry hahaha

This is Muar! Food paradise!

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                                                                        Yummy!

Fighting!

I looked so retarded, but who cares :p

We are young!

Girls team! 

With the sampat vivo handsome!

With pretty Watson friend!

With london weight management friend!

Yeah done by my boss who was a famous hairstylish before

Friendship forever my best sister! Glad can work with you this time! Credit to Jing Yuan for the nice arts!:)

 I really appreciated the time with you guys! Such a good memory for me during this long long sem break. I will definitely missing every single one of you! Keep in touch and tc!

                                                                                                       by Erynn

France

My favourite country would definitely is France! France may not be the richest countries in the world, but I deeply convinced residents there live the most decent and elegant way. Just imagine those famous architectures, beautiful women, excellent coffee, inviting cheese bread, and fancy perfumes. Who doesn't want to live there? How I wish I was born there. Malaysian always work to live, work is just actually a part of our life, so let us enjoy our work and our life. Between, I really hope I can have the chance to travel to Paris, France with the one I loved. Perfect climate, four seasons, amazing foods, romantic cultures there. If the chance to see the Eiffel Tower every day and experience incredibly delicious wine for just 3 euro/bottle are not enough. 

There are few reasons I love Paris:

#Because of work to live, not live to work

French know how to maintain a proper life and work balance. One of the reasons behind closing the shop at 7pm sharply, is to let employees enjoy dinner with the family back home. The French have 1 month of paid vacations, starting to accumulate once they get hired. 

#Because of the foods

The way to our hearts is through our stomachs. France is well known as a true Paradise for anyone who likes to eat and values great cooking. The French is a true masters of the arts especially when it comes to sweet dishes. You can find numerous patisseries throughout Paris, where you can indulge in sweet pleasure. There is lots of best coffee and delicious macaroons with imaginable colors. Here is a heaven indeed for the people who love the sweet tooth. Locals claim it's around a thousand due to slight regional varieties within each cheese type. Soft cheese, firm cheese, mild or blue. Made of unpasteurized cow milk, goat milk and lamb milk. Owww sounds delicious right? *Saliva drooling*

#Because of the city of love and light

Because of the Eiffel Tower, You just looking at this unique landmark is enough to put you in a romantic mood. Undeniable that there have been quite so many marriage proposals made here.The mood is particularly lovely after nightfall. When the Eiffel Tower is lit up in a n amazing way and about 20,000 lights twinkle for 5 minutes on the hour, every hour. It was too romantic if you come with your loved one. You may dinner here too, the restaurant is on the 1st Floor of the Eiffel Tower, and the experience of dining there will take your breath away. There is bathed in a sea of lights at night time. 

#Because I love you

The world most beautiful sentence has been immortalised in 311 different languages in Paris, on the Mur des je t'aime. The wall of love is a must-see for any loving couple visiting Paris. It is on the Hill of Montmartre that is well known as the highest natural elevation in the city. There is some popular

movie took here.

#Because of the Louvre Museum 

Visiting here is a dream for so many people travelling to Paris, and I'm no different.It was build in 1989, the Pyramide has proved its lasting power, and has become Paris' iconic sites. Take the escalators down from the pyramid entrance to the main lobby of the museum and buy the ticket to explore different areas of the museum. The museum was extremely big and the major attractions is the Mona Lisa, Venus de Milo. 

#Because of the love padlocks

The Pont des Arts links the Quai du Louvre on the right bank of the Seine with teh Quai de Malaquais on the left bank, and is widely viewed as one of the most romantic places in Paris. This is because there is thousand of loving couples have vowed their undying love here, with the help of love padlocks. There are countless numbers of padlocks have been attached to the railings of the bridge, actually no more space left there anymore. Some people have their names engraved on the padlocks, while some immortalise their love simply by writing their names and the date on the lock. Therefore, they then throw the key in the Seine below in order to ensure their love will last forever. 

                                                                                                                      by Erynn

Pitch Perfect 2

Finally watched the movie I longing for so long time! This movie was recommended by a music-based friend, awesome movie indeed! Strongly recommend to everyone who haven't watch yet. Worth to watch, the first movie ever I will watch more than one time or maybe more times. There are so many characters who will self-deprecating so I was get a laugh in at cinema just now. Instead of laughing part, it also have uncertain romantic inside. The most attractive part is the dancing competition scene, their dancing was too professional. The plot is too awesome because it's there to give the character something to do besides of singing, dancing and acting silly. I was like whaooo and screaming in my deep heart this was too awesome and amazing. I am going to download Pitch Perfect One as I told myself that I did missed it before, I can't miss it again. 

# They believe on themselves, strive for the best

Who run the world? GIRLS! They prove to the world they have the ability to beat other teams down. The perseverance, the determination and the friendship drive them to the succeed path. There are lots of inspired musical numbers and occasions in this movie.

# They play around and share anything together. 

It is good have a gang of friends can crazy and share with. The unconditional love and supports.

# They fight for their rights and fight for their dream together

The glory of  ''Pitch Perfect" is that it's devoted, above all, to the friendship and shared ambition of young women in order to achieve the victory of the final competition. 

# They show ridiculousness, hilarious and warmth

They show the meaning of life, helping each other all the time. Friends is really important in our life and you should truly understand this. 

# Talent is the bridge, dream is the way 

This two awesome girls, Becca and Emily, are the two characters I love and admire the most in this movie. Becca hope can be a record producer while Emily was a song writer and hope can enroll herself in Barden Bellas with the sole ambition of following the footsteps of her mother. They have their own dream and pursue it no matter what happen next. Such a motivation and encouragement for me. I am absolutely melted and touched while "Flashlight' this song begin, with their sweet voices. ''Flashlight‘' this song is pretty awesome!

'Flashlight'

The best song written by Smith, Sam 

When tomorrow comes

I'll be on my own

Feeling frightened up

The things that I don't know

When tomorrow comes

Tomorrow comes

Tomorrow comes

And though the road is long

I look up to the sky

In the dark I found, I stop and I won't fly

And I sing along, I sing along, then I sing along

I got all I need when I got you and I

I look around me, and see sweet life

I'm stuck in the dark but you're my flashlight

You're gettin' me, gettin' me through the night

Can't stop my heart when you shinin' in my eyes

Can't lie, it's a sweet life

I'm stuck in the dark but you're my flashlight

You're gettin' me, gettin' me through the night

Cause you're my flash light

You're my flash light, you're my flash light

I see the shadows long beneath the mountain top

I'm not the afraid when the rain won't stop

Cause you light the way

You light the way, you light the way

I got all I need when I got you and I

I look around me, and see sweet life

I'm stuck in the dark but you're my flashlight

You're gettin' me, gettin' me through the night

Can't stop my heart when you shinin' in my eyes

Can't lie, it's a sweet life

I'm stuck in the dark but you're my flashlight

You're gettin' me, gettin' me through the night

Cause you're my flash light

You're my flash light, you're my flash light

I got all I need when I got you and I

I look around me, and see sweet life

I'm stuck in the dark but you're my flashlight

You're gettin' me, gettin' me through the night

Can't stop my heart when you shinin' in my eyes

Can't lie, it's a sweet life

I'm stuck in the dark but you're my flashlight

You're gettin' me, gettin' me through the night

Cause you're my flash light

You're my flash light, you're my flash light

Here is the official trailer, take five and have a look for it, trust me this will make your day teehee.

xxxx

Looking forward to ''Pitch Perfect 3", aren't you?

                                                                                                         by Erynn

                                                                                                            

A choice // A chance

Uhmm...yay I have been two years in this place. So much stories and so much memories here. Should I leave? Or should I stay? Yea they asked me to be courage to go catching my dream, go for what I really want. I am wondering, and hesitating whether is that really what I longing for? This thing made me felt lost. I give my life for fate, if I get it I will go and explore a new chapter over there; on the other hands, if I did not get it, I will stay and continue my endless stories here. This few days, but I know if only I'd stop trying to think about that, I just can start focusing in my studies. I keep on comparing the reason why should I leave. Do you wondering what is spinning in my mind lately, here you go: 

# Getting bored 

If you know me well and update my latest news frequently, you would definitely know that I am a person who love to explore the world that's why I love to travel with my family or soul mates but not alone for sure. I know there were many people love to go for travel alone, but I will feel lonely and boring that nobody can share with during travel and the main thing is I am a pretty girl that will be dangerous for me if travel alone abroad haha. Thus, I am getting bored with the environment here and planning to try something new outside. I am hating my life doing the same old routine day by day, made me felt pointless. So, stop complaining, stop grumbling, stop dreaming, go ahead! Nothing is impossible if I really want. Want or don't want, just this two matters simple as that.  

# A chance belong to me

As a friend told me that everyone got the chance belong to ourselves. Different people has different chance. I envy my friends go for Taiwan voluntary camp. This motivated me to grab this golden opportunity. Chance--->Choice--->Change. Obviously, I wish that I have a little change and a little move in my life. Take a step. Time is now. Live for dreams. I do hope this will become one of the checked resolution in my 2015. Between, I have one more resolutions going to realise with my best sister xoxo Doing what we love. Doing what we want. *Excited* *Scream* 

# A new beginning after break up

Love doesn't always hurt, but it usually does when it ends. It drive me made up my mind shaping my life story after that. I truly know that why I chose to end up that peaceful relationship. I was just trying to end the current pain and difficulties without considering the future in that bad situation happened to me. Frankly, I had already let go but I could feel him still hurting. so it's better don't contact and don't have a meet up after break up for temporary. I hope I can love myself more before loving someone and go for some adventures and challenging activities. I am appreciated that I still got my lovely family and many awesome friends by my side. Feeling blessed indeed.

# Future advantage

I have been scrolling Instagram, Facebook, and Twitter during free time, Recently saw a lot of friends who studied abroad especially Europe countries, I am really envy them have the chance. If I really get the opportunity to go there, I can wider my social circle and participate in a lot of events there. For this student exchange programmes, I can gain new experiences and get a better job in my future too. 

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There are so many benefits for me to leave here right? So why am I still hesitating and contradicting? 

Here are the things made me wish to stay here forever:

# The moments with friends here

I did spent so many unforgettable days with them that caused me loath and reluctant to part with them. Sabah family and coursemates here who treat me as a princess always, caring, companion and fooling around all the time. We have been going through so much happiness and darkness. Birthday celebration, and event participating, those are the sweetest memories in my university life ever. Never regret choose to come here for further my studies. 

# Entertainment

So many entertainment here, rafting, island hopping, hiking and so many fun activities here. I am just staying beside a shopping centre. I can have a Starbucks drinks when I wish to high tea with my friends. I can go for a movie anytime especially in the midnight time. I can go for an outing having a nice meals within a call. If I go there, the entertainment I can only involving is travel to Thailand and take part in university events. In contrary, I can more focus and concentrate in my course works and will not be easily influenced. Ermm...sounds not too bad though.

# Adaptation 

There will be a challenge for me in adapting to a new environment. It will be tough for me as I am quite introvert and always passive in making new friends around. Thus, this is the things I have to cope with, I hope I can make it successfully. I always need a companion by my side to guide me, alright now is the time to grow. 

Don't expect much, just go for it. It is okay. Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end. Good thing are coming down all the road, just don't stop walking. I am happy that finally I made up my mind and feeling settled down. Between, I want to see my level of courage so just go ahead Erynn! You can do it!

Yea, I am prepared I am ready to go! Wish me luck kay (:

XOXO 

                                                                    

                                                                                               

                                                                                        By  Erynn